Thanksgiving 2008

I have been putting blogging off for a few days now... but find myself having to blog so I can get on with things. I miss you so much mom. I was out in the stores and with all of the Christmas decorations up it just made me miss you that much more.  I WISH YOU WERE HERE!

I woke up this morning (Thanksgiving Day) and wanted to call Estelle to find out when you were going to be there... I know you are gone but some habits are hard to break.. meaning I know you would spend the night at Estelle's or go up early to help her cook Thanksgiving dinner.

I remember all of the Thanksgiving Days from the past when Zach was a little boy, hard to imagine he will be 20 in April. I find myself looking for gifts for  you for Christmas... I think I may 'adopt' a Senior woman this year with the name Margaret in your honor and buy for her... 

Oh Mom how my heart aches for you to be here. You would be so proud of Madison, she is brighter than a light bulb. LOL .. seriously as I am still homeschooling her.

I wish you were here for her... too.

I  just want you know, I still love you and miss you so much!

Happy Thanksgiving Mom, I hope you are having a feast with the King. 

 

I will give thanks to the Lord with my whole heart;
I will recount all of your wonderful deeds.

—Psalm 9:1  

In Him,

Valerie~

August 2008

I find myself, missing you more and more especially when I least expect it. Weird I know.

I so wish I could just hear your voice, and call you like I did everyday, sometimes several times a day even though I didn't have much to say. As Madison is getting older, she still talks about you and most recently, I made Salmon Patties, I told her that you used to make them for me when I was growing up and that you loved them. She had never tried them but she said she loved them! :)

It really made me smile. I wish I could give you a kiss once again and hug you a little tighter.

I often have to go and pull out some of your things that I brought home with me that smell like smoke of all things as that is you. I don't know what else to say other than, "Mother I Miss You" and I love you so very much still. 

                                                      

Happy Birthday Mom May 16th

Happy Heavenly Birthday Mom

May 16, 2008

The circle has been broken,

but we are stretching to stay

connected. We're looking up

to heaven where you are

looking down.

Happy Birthday Mom,

We love & miss you!

Last year I wrote this:

Happy Birthday Mom

May 16, 2007

Today is Mom's Birthday May 16th

And we will celebrate it without her.....

It has only been a little over a month since

she has been gone....

She would have been a mere 64 years young.

We miss her terribly  and love her so.

We know she is in a better place

as she is "dancing with the angels" on the

streets of gold. I hope you can hear us sing

Happy Birthday To You....

Your in our hearts forever,

We love and miss you

Have a wonderful birthday Mom.

In Memory of Margaret Parkinson

May 16,1943-April 7, 2007

Mother I MISS YOU.. on this Mother's Day

I have been in a funk all day.. I couldn't put my finger on it, I just figured I was tired since I worked the overnight shift, it was rainy and cloudy all day too and that didn't help.

But I guess when all is said and done, I REALLY Miss My MOM.

Estelle, said that she had purchased a half a dozen of roses for mom and was going to the cemetery to give them to Mom.

I hope the weather was nice... Last year was my first mother's day with out mom, it was just about 3-4 weeks after she unexpectactly died. I somehow managed to get through it. 

This year, I thought it would be easier.. I can't busy a card, as they don't make them for deceased mothers. So I am blogging instead, I haven't had the time today to go and hunt for the perfect poem to say all I can't seem to find the words to express today.... I just didn't want the day to go by without posting. 

I love you mom, and my heart aches wanting to much to hear your voice once more.

 

It’s Mother’s Day in heaven, and I miss my mother. I wonder if she knows?

It’s Mother’s Day in heaven, and I miss my mother. I wonder if she knows?

Taken as an excerpt

How do we face a day set aside for mothers, when the woman who brought us into this world has been taken from this world? Ask those who have already been down this road and they will tell you that it is a very lonely time. For each of you that will be glowing with smiles, shopping for your mother and taking her out to your favorite restaurant, there will be those of us whose heart will be aching as we remember the last moments spent with our mothers. 

So this Mother’s Day, I will delight in the beauty of roses.

This Mother’s Day allow yourself to feel the love and joy of your children. You are not betraying your mother by feeling happiness. Your mother would want you to be happy on this day and remember her laughter. Grief is normal and there is no easy way to deal with it. Close your eyes and remember your child hood and the happy times spent with Mom. Remember the talks and the wisdom she shared, even remember the fights when you didn't quite see eye to eyeDon't keep these emotions bottled up inside you, perhaps write a special essay or poem, and dedicate it in your mother’s memory, share memories of your special times spent with your mother with family and friends, pull out old photographs or look at a video tape of your mother. Every year on holidays, I light a candle in my mother’s memory. Go out and buy yourself a rose bush and plant it in your flower bed. Each year as summer brings back the birth of roses; your mother’s memory will re-bloom in the beauty of those roses.

Your mother is forever with you, she is in the part of your mind where she will never die. This Mother’s Day rejoice and smile. Your Mother gave you life and with that life she taught you many things, but one thing she may not have taught you was how to say goodbye when her time would come to leave this earth. Death it is just the passage through a door. It is from one room until the next, from this life into eternal life. Right there through the clouds is where your mother is, she is in the beauty of roses that bloom.

Remember your mother this Mother’s Day, mourn in her death, but rejoice in her rebirth.

I will never be able to write anything that matches the love my mother had for me, but may my love for her be found within the wisdom of the words that I share with all of you.

1-800 I'm calling Heaven operator, please patch through a call to our mothers and wish them a Happy Mother’s Day from their children on earth.

Author
Rose DesRochers

http://www.todays-woman.net/article1145.html

Mother's Day....How to use the holiday as a time to heal and remember, not to grieve

How to use the holiday as a time to heal and remember, not to grieve

By Dr. Gail Saltz

TODAYShow.com contributor

updated 5:04 p.m. ET, Wed., May. 7, 2008

Dr. Gail Saltz TODAY Contributor • Profile • E-mail

On Mother’s Day, many people feel pressured to do the greeting card/Sunday brunch/bouquet of flowers thing. That is perfectly valid. It satisfies a need to prove you have a good relationship with your mother.

Of course, relationships with one’s mother are complicated and can’t be watered down to good or bad or roses or daisies. Pretty much all mother-child relationships have some conflict built into them, some more than others.

Today, however, I will address dealing with Mother’s Day when your mother is deceased.

Obviously, any day that holds memories — such as a birthday, holiday or anniversary — can be be painful, and can remain painful for years.

On Mother’s Day, everyone else is focused on their mothers. So the feeling of missing your mother — and feeling like you are the only one in the world without a mother — can intensify these feelings of loss. This holds whether or not you had a good relationship with your mother when she was alive.

Though Mother’s Day is a "Hallmark holiday," it still is powerful. No matter how old you are, losing a parent is a regressive experience that makes people feel young, childlike and vulnerable.

So it’s OK to understand that Mother’s Day isn’t always happy. Acknowledge that you are sad and miss your mother. There’s no need to pretend it is not a melancholy time for you. Nearly everyone whose mother is absent feels bereft.

Even as you acknowledge that nothing and nobody can replace your mother, if you are a mother yourself, focus on the joy of having your own children. Celebrating your own motherhood will provide solace.

Finally, if you are estranged from your mother, Mother’s Day provides a good excuse for trying to repair the relationship. In some cases, a relationship is so toxic or abusive it is better ended. But there are many more times when that is not the case.

If, for whatever reason, there has been an evolution into a distance, or else a long-past insult that nobody really cares about anymore, Mother’s Day can allow you to mend that rift.

If you do decide to use Mother's Day as an opportunity to heal your relationship, remember that it's not a time to accuse or bring up old wounds. And don't be afraid to acknowledge that you miss having more of a relationship with her.

There is benefit from telling your mother you have been thinking of her and would like to achieve more closeness. The fact it is Mother’s Day will likely soften her up, as well. The time is ripe to make amends. So spend some time together, talk by phone, or send a letter or note. It is wonderful to enjoy your mother while she is still around.

Memorial~In Loving Memory April 7, 2008; Your 1 Year Heavenly Anniversary

Estelle, put this in the T & D back home in J-town PA

In Loving Memory

 of 

MARGE PARKINSON

Who went to live with the Angels 

April 7, 2007

Life without you has been a struggle,

As well as a challenge.

We thank you for the gifts of 

fortitude, wisdom and laughter.

And most of all...love and friendship

You are Loved and Deeply Missed!

Daughter/Son-in-law: 

Estelle and Henry S-

Daughter/Son-in-law:

Valerie and Russ C-

Grandchildren: Zachary and Madison,

Granddogs:Gracie, Petie & Cotton

Woof Woof

Grammy

I WISH YOU WERE HERE... MOM

I Wish You Were Here... MOM
I know you are dancing with the Angels on the streets made of gold...
Margaret C. Parkinson
May 16, 1943- April 7, 2007


I miss my MOM, she went home to be with the Lord April 7, 2007
She wasn't sick, she took no medications and had no health issues....
but yet died a tragic death of hemorrhaging to death...
I don't understand it all.. but I do know she is in heaven and that Mark Harris's song "I Wish You Were Here" is such a blessing to me as well as "Mother I Miss You, by John Tesh and Dalia



WISH YOU WERE HERE

Artist: Mark Harris

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=khc-7jAsmZI&feature=related

(To HEAR the song; The video was all I could find with the song)

I wanted to tell you how closely I’ve kept

The memories of you in my heart

And all of the lifetimes that we had to share
..

But don’t cry for me

‘Cause I’m finally free


To run with the angels

On streets made of gold

To listen to stories of saints new and old

To worship our Maker

That’s where I’ll be

When you finally find me

No don’t you be weary cause waiting for you

Are wonders that you’ve never known

Just hold on to Jesus, reach out for his hands

And one day They’ll welcome you home

And that’s when you’ll be

Finally free

Finally free

To run with the angels

On streets made of gold

To listen to stories of saints new and

To worship our maker

That’s where I’ll be

When you finally find me

I wish you were here, I wish you were here

And all of the dreams that you treasure

Will soon come together

And that’s when your sorrow will find tomorrow

And you will rise again

To run with the angels on streets made of gold

To listen to stories of saints new and old

To worship our maker that’s where you’ll be

When you finally find me


We’ll run with the angels on streets made of gold

We’ll listen to stories of saints new and old

We’ll worship our maker that’s where we’ll be

When you finally find me


I wish you were here

MOTHER I MISS YOU

MOTHER I MISS YOU
By John Tesh & Dalia 1998

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XXkB9W_DxHc

(To HEAR the song; The video was all I could find with the song)

Is it me?
Or have I deceived myself
I thought I heard you call my name
Out in the pouring rain
I really thought
I though I saw your face but after a second look
I sure made a clear mistake
Mother I miss you
And nights I just wish you were here with me
So we could laugh and talk again
Mother I miss you
But I'll just kiss you
And send it on the way
Cause you know I plan too see you again
So much I wanted to show you
So much I wanted to give
I thought our time would be much longer
Missing my best friend
Mother I miss you
And nights I just wish you were here with me
So we could laugh and talk again
Mother I miss you
I miss you
But I'll kiss you
And I'll send it on the way
Cause you know I plan to see
You Again

3 more days

3 more days... till your one year anniversary. 

I hope I can get through the weekend, I am working so I suppose 

that will help. Monday April 7, is the day... I will try to keep busy 

but I am sure my thoughts will be of you all day.

If Roses Grow in Heaven

If roses grow in Heaven Lord

Please pick a bunch for me.

Place them in my Mother's arms

and tell her they're from me.

Tell her I love her and miss her,

and when she turns to smile,

Place a kiss upon her cheek

and hold her for a while.

Because remembering her is easy,

I do it everyday,

But there is an ache within my heart... still. 

That will never go away.

~~~Tears~~~

If tears could build a stairway,

and memories were a lane, 

I would walk right up to heaven 

to bring you home again. 

No farewell words were spoken 

no time to say goodbye 

you were gone before I knew it, 

and only God knows why. 

My heart still aches in sadness 

and secret tears still flow, 

what it meant to lose you, 

no one will ever know. 

-Anonymous

Today... Remembering

Today, I had to go through some of the boxes that we brought back home from PA that were stored at my friend Linda's house. 

As I went through some of the things, I already knew what was there... I shared the pics with Madison and I pulled out a large throw with an Angel on it, I brought up close and smelled it... although you smoked and I never did, it smelled like you, your scent and of course the smoke smell... and then the tears flowed like a hard summer rain.

 I miss you so much mom, my heart aches in a way I never knew possible.

 It is only 12 days till your heavenly anniversary. 

I rejoice as I know you are in Heaven, I cry because I miss you so much. 

I love you mom... still.

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