June 12-13-Annual Dance Recital

Well, it is that time of the year again... Madison's Dance Recital.

She will be dancing to some oldies:

1. Cool Rider

2. Rock N Roll is Here to Stay

and for her competitive team she is dancing to, 

Everyone Loves a Lover by Doris Day- 1958

I know you will have the best seat in the house, the one up above.

I so wish you were here to see her.. but  I know you are always with us. 

I wish I could hug and give you a kiss and hear you say, Valerie Lynn.... I can still hear you say it. :)

Missing you mom.

Have a "Heavenly" Day!

xoxoxox

I love you......

June 4 2009

Just wanting to share that today Madison participated in a Kindergarten Graduation with our homeschool group (Home For His Glory) 

She looked beautiful! 

Although she is an accelerated learner and is actually finishing FIRST GRADE I wanted to be sure to have some Kindergarten Graduation stuff since I had some of Zach's. She  technically would be in Kindergarten if she was going to public or private school. 

She also did a Ballet Solo to Mark Harris's "Find Your Wings" it was just BEAUTIFUL. 

I know you would be so proud of her mom. 

Happy Mother's Day Mom~

Today is a day of rejoicing... to be thankful for our mothers.

I am thankful for you mother, for keeping me when it wasn't so cool to be 

unmarried and pregnant. I hope I brought you joy when I was growing up.

I know you life wasn't always easy in any way, but it made you into the woman you were.

Today, as always I want to say I Love You. You are loved and missed more than you would ever know.

Thank you for keeping me and loving me. You made me into independent woman. I am forever

grateful as I am richly blessed. 

Happy  "Heavenly" Mother's Day!

April 7, 2009 2 year "Heavenly" Anniversary

Today marks your 2nd "Heavenly" Anniversary.

I am kinda in a funk today.. words can't express what I am thinking or feeling....

I sure do miss you. 

I look at Madison and know you would be so proud. 

She is growing like a wild weed but is good hearted and a joy.

She is a blessing.

I miss you mom, I just wish we had more time..... I wish you would have 

taken care of yourself. 

Life is so short. 

I love you still...

January 2009

Gosh, December was quite a busy month! We decorated the tree but I didn't want to do the same "Angel" theme that I did last year in your honor. I just couldn't do that again, it was too hard emotionally. So we pulled out the "Snowman/Snow" themed stuff. I have decided that the photo frame I bought and put your photo in last year was going to be an annual ornament on our tree just like my "Angel Babies" ornaments. I found it rather difficult to remove your photo from the tree this year, in fact it was the very last ornament I removed.

Zach came home to visit for the holidays and he trimmed his beard and got a hair cut. I was so excited that I took him and Madison to have their pictures taken and they turned out AWESOME!
I can't believe he will be 20 in April and our little princess just turned 6 in December.

I really do miss you, sometimes more than others. I remember something vivid on Christmas Eve, it was rather warm here and I had to work and extra job for like 2 hours while everyone else went to church. I got off a bit early and wanted to do some last minute shopping at Kohl's as I was coming out the sky had this BEAUTIFUL pink'ish sunset in the sky. It totally caught me by surprise and I just a moment as ever since Madison said the summer after you went to heaven that you helped to "paint" the sunsets with Jesus (she remembers me telling her you loved to paint) Even as I write I can still see that vivid pink'ish sunset.

Mother, I miss you and I wish you were here!
I love you~

Thanksgiving 2008

I have been putting blogging off for a few days now... but find myself having to blog so I can get on with things. I miss you so much mom. I was out in the stores and with all of the Christmas decorations up it just made me miss you that much more.  I WISH YOU WERE HERE!

I woke up this morning (Thanksgiving Day) and wanted to call Estelle to find out when you were going to be there... I know you are gone but some habits are hard to break.. meaning I know you would spend the night at Estelle's or go up early to help her cook Thanksgiving dinner.

I remember all of the Thanksgiving Days from the past when Zach was a little boy, hard to imagine he will be 20 in April. I find myself looking for gifts for  you for Christmas... I think I may 'adopt' a Senior woman this year with the name Margaret in your honor and buy for her... 

Oh Mom how my heart aches for you to be here. You would be so proud of Madison, she is brighter than a light bulb. LOL .. seriously as I am still homeschooling her.

I wish you were here for her... too.

I  just want you know, I still love you and miss you so much!

Happy Thanksgiving Mom, I hope you are having a feast with the King. 

 

I will give thanks to the Lord with my whole heart;
I will recount all of your wonderful deeds.

—Psalm 9:1  

In Him,

Valerie~

August 2008

I find myself, missing you more and more especially when I least expect it. Weird I know.

I so wish I could just hear your voice, and call you like I did everyday, sometimes several times a day even though I didn't have much to say. As Madison is getting older, she still talks about you and most recently, I made Salmon Patties, I told her that you used to make them for me when I was growing up and that you loved them. She had never tried them but she said she loved them! :)

It really made me smile. I wish I could give you a kiss once again and hug you a little tighter.

I often have to go and pull out some of your things that I brought home with me that smell like smoke of all things as that is you. I don't know what else to say other than, "Mother I Miss You" and I love you so very much still.